Looking for balance within myself. So much has changed over the past 2 years…

Am down to 195 pounds as of this morning for the first time in over 115 years at least. Finding balance in eating using the majority of the food I eat as fuel, to care for my body versus work against it. Am discovering how to balance my hypersensitivity to environmental noise. Noise being the television, people talking, especially people wanting verbal input from me. Realized that the term “auditory and sensory defensiveness” describes my struggle very well. My nervous system gets triggered, I brace and lose my presence which over time leaves me depleted emotionally, spiritually, physically and psychologically.

Living in the space between the chaos is what I strive for…what I crave. For 28 years I survived living with internal chaos that created external chaos. Learning how to reduce and eliminate the source, the internal chaos has been the most precious gift. Without God it would not exist and without Him helping me, the present would have continued to escape my grasp.